Torn.

I am torn between two people who are torn between one another.
What do I do? What do I say? What can I do?
Whether I like this situation or not, I am stuck right in the middle.
But I mean, I would rather be in the middle than out of the loop completely, right?
Because it seems that if I were out of the loop I would have two less friends, and I never want that to happen. I don't ever want to lose these two! They had been so close for so long what happened, what is going on? Why am I somewhat infatuated by both? When they are hurt, so am I. I don't want them to drift apart, but sadly, in the same sense I don't want them to get close either. That is such a fucked up thing to say, or think rather, but that is how I feel. I am upset he has a girlfriend too, you have a reason to be more hurt, but I know where you are coming from. And come on man I know she bugs you, but she loves you, and you know you love her too, or do you? And why do I love you both? What is going on? I just want someone to pat us all on the back and reassure us that everything will be alright, just to be patient.
Patience .... that is a hard thing to keep in these situations.
I love you guys so much!
I miss you when I am not with you.
And it is really hard, even for me, just to see you like this.
And I don't want any innocent people to get hurt.
My heart seems to be torn between you two.
I love ya girl, I love ya man.

....

Torn.

Twilight!

Was an amazing epic motion picture!
Smart, funny, sensual, seductive, awkward, beautiful.
Any adjective you can think of fits!
The movie captured the book so well!!
I was speechless after the movie!
This movie takes you literally out of this world!
A MUST SEE!!!!!!!!!!!

"Oh"

*The phone rings*
"Hello?... What's wrong?"
*The person on the other end of the line talks forever about her current problem, "It is just so stupid", "I don't know what to do", "What happened when he went through this", Blah blah blah... Etc. And she kept pausing between them all for responses*
The person on this line just wasn't responding, so finally I stepped in and said,
"Say something!"
This is when she picked the phone up and said,
"Oh."
OH!! WTF!! HAHAHA!! That is all you can say, "Oh." Wow.
And to make it worse,
"Well we are leaving now and I have bad service but I will call you later, bye!"
Once off the phone the three of us in the car laughed our asses off!
Good times..
When we tried to fill the third person on the conversation they missed, this was said,
"It wasn't that short of an 'Oh', it was like two syllables"

?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

Can someone tell me how "Oh." can be to syllables?!?

UH-OH!

XD

Tree.

Yesterday I watched/helped/took pictures/took video/ (of a) tree being cut down.
Quite entertaining stuff! It was better that sitting at home doing nothing!
Alomost knocked down a power line, but it didnt break so that is good! Right?!? lol.
So if ever you are bored.. grab a few friends and cut down a tree!
But please, dont damage anything! Because if you do I am not taking the credit because of this blog! :D

Crush.

Whoever decided to name it that knew what the fuck they were talking about!
Have you ever liked someone and you knew it was a complete waste of time?
And on top of that, for some unapparent reason, it is hard for you to stop liking them?
Yeah, I know a lot of people deal with this everyday.
But on top of all of this my crush happens to be a guy.
And beleive me if you are reading this you dont know him! So dont ask.
I cant help it, that feeling is there, I am really trying to get over it though.
I am getting better little by little!
I just dont want things to be awkward, I dont want things to be weird.
I am glad that we are friends!

Bi.

I like girls and I like guys too
Sometimes this fact makes me blue
I am struck by ones personality
The anatomy doesnt mean a thing to me
This is not something that I choose
but honestly what the hell do I have to lose
Think of me what you must
Because in the end we all turn to dust

Now it is time to deal and swallow my pride
because technically I have the best of both sides.

High.

I sat there alone in the dark,
waiting for a little spark,
so that the flame can come on by,
to light it up and then get high.
Inhale and let my mind take flight,
exhale and hold that blunt tight.
Chill and relax for a little bit of time
And that my friends is the ends of this rhyme.

Day off.

Today I spent with you
But they were there too,
and they really like you,
yet sadly I do too.
I don't know what to do.


Today I spent with 2 good friends went to the mall movies made fools out of ourselves, because that is what we are good at! I thought that today would be a little awkward, but it was alright, I guess I am getting adjusted. Ahh, good day off, now I must go to school tomorrow! UGH!!! Why cant we have the whole week off?!?

The Bull.

YEE - HAWWW

Come one, come all, to the Dallas Bull. (I never said that I would keep franchises/clubs anonymous)
Well two of my friends, and one of their older sisters decided to go there one night to party, dance, and meet some fellas. Well the older sister was old enough to drink but of course she let her lil sis and friend take some (sips).
Yeah well supposedly,
"Believe me that place is not fun when you are sober, what else was I supposed to do?"

Some time passed, and all was well, yet boring, until this bouncer walked up to one of the under aged girls and asked her to step outside.
"Young lady have you been drinking?!?"
"What, me, uh, what, ... no.. okay, yeah!"
"I see you tried to mark your X off to look older."
"Actually I had to pee and I had to wash my hands."
"Well I am going to have to ask you and your party to leave the premises."
"Good, I didn't like this place anyways."

They didn't get arrested, or ticketed or anything, just got off with a warning, which is good.


Besides I told her not to go to the Dallas Bull to begin with! LOL.

Wish upon a star.

I wish upon a star so bright,

That you could be with me here tonight.

But I am still sitting, so lonesome and blue,

I guess my wish will just never come true.

By: Garrett Godbey.

Sinking slowly.

Earlier this year I was dealing with a lot of crap.
I never try to let it be known, but, I was.
These past few months I have been working really hard to be happy, and not to sink back into my mini depression.
A lot of my family has dealt with depression, and the teens in the family are starting to get it early. Its is not cool or fun.
Lately I am feeling that I am sinking slowly back into mine and that is not something I want to happen. It seems like everything is just piling on top of me, when in reality I am only making things worse than they have to be. Senior year is very stressful, honestly if you plan on going to a college, start filling out apps. now, start trying for scholarships, I have procrastinated so long it is just one big hassle!
I am dealing with family shit off and on, I am dealing with confusion (sexual orientation), I am dealing with and unrequited like (crush), jealousy, and still trying to apply myself in school (that isn't going to well either.)

Sometimes I wish that I could either be in someone elses shoes for a day to see how their life is better or worse, and sometimes (most of the time) I just wish that I could get away from all of this mayhem, and relax....

But that wouldn't be life now would it?!?

Signed,
Sinking into the quicksand.

The window.

I sit there and look out my window
It is like a portal into the future
Everything is happening here and now
The wind blowing through the trees
The birds flying
The planes soaring
The clouds swimming in the light blue sky
The grass changing colors while the sun sets
Everything so bright and vivid
In time the sun goes down and all is dark
No more colors, no more birds, no more beauty within the light
But there are stars, millions of them
That makes the window still worth being held open
When life gets to much, take the time,
Open your blinds and see the beauty of the world!

Energy.

If you know me, you know that I am not partial to energy drinks.
Long story short I had a bad experience with Red Bull, (I hope all the fish in the ocean enjoyed what I ate for breakfast as much as I did!) Also if you know me you know that I like to fool around with people!
* * *
Anyways, this girl yesterday at school was walking downstairs with an energy drink, as I was passing her walking upstairs I said,
"And you didn't get one for me?"
Just joking of course I didn't mean this statement literally.
To which she replied,
"Do you want this? I don't, it is gross."
"Hell yeah I want it, thanks." I said.
Even though I don't usually drink them I decided to, I was thirsty, and I felt I needed some energy!
Well energy indeed, I got all loopy and hyper. I had people so entertained that now they all want to see me drunk.
"If you are like this with an energy drink, I have to see you wasted! You are probably so funny."
* * *
Well, where there is a high, there is also a crash.
During eighth period I started to feel the crash, and then having to stay after school for boring ass rehearsals didn't help my mood one bit. Madea night, (see previous blog entitled Madea Night), was postponed.
* * *
And also if you know me, I have this weird phobia of gas stations, I HATE THEM.
My dad wanted to put gas in both of our vehicles. And all of the sudden me and this old lady almost collided. She honked her horn at me, what else was I supposed to do? My window was already down, I had to do the all American thing!
*Sticks out middle finger*
"FUCK YOU* I yelled.
Well, yeah, my dad heard me too!
"That is no way to talk to anyone." he exclaimed.
"Don't mess with me right now, please." I responded.
* * *
So, yesterday was kinda like the best and worst day all thrown together!
And I can't wait for the newly scheduled Madea Night!
* * *

It all started with an energy drink (actually with me waking up) but you know what I mean!

Bacon.

"You like Bacon right?"
"What's bacon?!?!?"
Seriously, what can I say?!? How do you live in this place called America and NOT know what bacon is!
Well this is coming out of the mouth of the girl who also said,
"Vienna Sausage looks like a 5 year olds tiny dick"
Really? I don't want to know why you are looking at 5 year olds dicks!
WOW!!
Pedophile much?!?
This chick is something else!

* * *

Neways, lets move on to another story, I thought this one was cute!
A little girl walked up to one of her friends at school (4th grade)
"Hey did you hear about Aaliyah?"
"No, what?"
"She is going to leave the country, Obama won."

Aww... I remember how it was to be so young and innocent.

Buttons

Two of my good friends are inseparable! It is like a package deal with these 2.
But ever so often, if not all the time, they push each others buttons a lil too much!
They used to date, and we all thought that they were "the perfect couple". They were so awesome together. But things change, they are still really close friends though! But it seems lately that they spend so much time around each other that they tend to get annoyed more easily!
Today at lunch, we were all just playin around, being bitchy with one another, when they started to push each others buttons.
"You know you make people want to hate you sometimes" one said to the other..
At this point I was bored and decided to get into it (just playin around) and got all bitchy! But whenever I said nething to push their buttons (which it did) they just couldn't get angry with me!
"Why is it that when you say things that should make us hate you we don't?" Was asked to me?
"Because I am a teddy bear!!" I replied!
So supposedly I can push the buttons and still be loved, that made me feel a little better about myself i suppose!
:D

Question.

Do you ever have those days/weeks or longer where you feel just so lost in thought and you cant accomplish anything?
Almost like you are alive but not there.
You try to do things, but you are so easily distracted!
You think about today, you think about what happened, you think about tomorrow, you think about what you want to happen, you think about what will happen. You react to your own thoughts and you put yourself into an indescribable mood.
Do you ever feel this way? Or is it just me?!? I am not crazy am I?
Sometimes I feel that I am.
Just everything is on my mind, my family, my friends, my future... life in general!
Sometimes it is alot to take in all at once!
I keep everything to locked up inside of me!
Sometimes I feel as if I am going to burst!
I dont know?!? Its weird!
***
Should I feel this way?

*Stares off into the distance and becomes snowed under in his own thoughts*

Gators.

So every other Monday a friend of mine and some of his acquaintances go to this place called Gators for all you can eat wings! Lately I have been invited, supposedly I am "part of the crew" now, which I don't mind I love going to Gators. And lets just say these people are a trip! FUNNY SHIT!!! Some of the conversations we have at that table are just... whoa! lmao! For instance, yesterday, I was asked, When having "fun" ... and you are "reaching the end of your journey" do you let them know or do you let it be a surprise?
How does one answer that?!? Lol. I said "surprise" just to see what the table would say! But when I have "Fun" I make sure to ask what the other would prefer, Of course. And also I got to watch two black guys playing Yu-Gi-oh. (Sp)? good timez!
I have never seen ne one actually play with the cards, it was really confusing to follow! And of course I had at least 6 glasses of Sweet Tea!
So last night we all (Choked on bones) (Played with an older mans bouncy balls) (And contemplated a porno) INSIDE JOKES!!!
HA HA!!!
And of course yu gotta check out the ladies (or guys). w/e.

WING NIGHT!!!!!!!

3-5 yr old girl comes out of closet

Literally, last night was my sisters annual halloween party.
Me and 4 friends were bored so we went into one of the many bedrooms in the house! We had to be in this room for at least five minutes, the party was gettin loud so I decided to close the door, (and we were getting ready to play truth or dare which failed miserably), as soon as I closed the door, the closet door swings open and this little girl pops out avoids eye contact and runs out of the room!
This scared the shit out of me! This little girl was in there the whole time! What was she doing in the closet?!? We all laughed for what seemed to be the longest time!
Haha, and all this happened before runnin around the neighborhood, random runnin across intersections, minor pole dancing, much picture taking, as well as "Free Hugs (Tips accepted)" and "Honk if your horn works" sign holding!
***
We did get quite a few people to honk, one truck (with teens in the back) screamed "YOU SUCK" To which I replied, "YOUR MOM SUCKS MY DICK BITCH!" Lets just say we kept a look out for that truck to make sure it didnt come back around!
***
Then jammin out to Pink, Maroon 5, and many other artists on the car ride home.
And to end the night I went home and watched a Pink concert!
Good Timez!!
Wish you could have been there!
WIsh I could do it all again!

Ahh, Halloween

What a crazy holiday!
People dress up, run aroung like todlers, and all just for candy!
Well where there is a holiday, there are parties! And we ALL know how those go!
Again I am keeping this completely anonymous but it was so funny i thought i would share!

Last night, this morning rather, at 1:41 AM, i got a phone call... or shall we call it a drunk dial!
This child was partying a lil too hard! And was drivin home?!?
According to this person
"I.. wanted to.... stay...but...sleeping spots....uh...taken.."
Which is fine, this person wasnt driving far i am glad she called so i could listen out for nething (bad) to happen.
I told her
"Drive safely"
and got the reply
"I.. am.. driving in between... the.. white and.........yellow..lines..."
Here comes the good shit! This person got home!!!!
"I hope ... my mom... is asleep.... and i can make it....inside... i am rele tired...
...
...
UGH I just ran into... that car.."
This child steps out of her car and walks into the neighbors!
And when she got inside, she persisted on talking to her mom!!

YOU ARE WASTED, DONT TALK TO UR MOM!!!
LMAO!!!


GOOD TIMEZZ

I am glad she made it home safe!!

Ahh, Halloween!

I should prolly call her..(Major hangover I presume.)
:D