Sinking slowly.

Earlier this year I was dealing with a lot of crap.
I never try to let it be known, but, I was.
These past few months I have been working really hard to be happy, and not to sink back into my mini depression.
A lot of my family has dealt with depression, and the teens in the family are starting to get it early. Its is not cool or fun.
Lately I am feeling that I am sinking slowly back into mine and that is not something I want to happen. It seems like everything is just piling on top of me, when in reality I am only making things worse than they have to be. Senior year is very stressful, honestly if you plan on going to a college, start filling out apps. now, start trying for scholarships, I have procrastinated so long it is just one big hassle!
I am dealing with family shit off and on, I am dealing with confusion (sexual orientation), I am dealing with and unrequited like (crush), jealousy, and still trying to apply myself in school (that isn't going to well either.)

Sometimes I wish that I could either be in someone elses shoes for a day to see how their life is better or worse, and sometimes (most of the time) I just wish that I could get away from all of this mayhem, and relax....

But that wouldn't be life now would it?!?

Signed,
Sinking into the quicksand.