The last 3 months.

So it has been almost three months since I have last blogged and as always when I take my time away a lot has changed! I have lost friends, I have gained friends, added stress from college and my new job have put a great toll on my social life. All I have been thinking lately is about my future, of course I am going to school but what good is that going to do if I do not know what path I want to take for life? I am tired of sitting in the dark! I know it is my life and I have to make my own decisions but the thought of failing is frightening!! This whole summer I did well in my attempt to remain optimistic, but now the stress from life is pulling me down the dark road of pessimism and that is not something that I enjoy! What does a person do when they want to find their calling in life but cant? Scientists can help by finding cures for many diseases but they cant figure out how to help people to help decide their futures. I am lost but I am trying to find my way! I do not want to stay at a minimum wage job for the rest of my life! That is all I know for sure! I want to do well in life and prove all the people who have ever doubted me wrong once and for all!