A day is always filled with sunshine and optimism but there are usually rain clouds of pessimism.

My goal this week was to be more optimistic about life, and let me tell you I am trying my damnedest but it is quite difficult! I don't know what to do about anything? Can you tell me how to think, how to act, what to say or do, because if I keep attempting by myself I think that I may implode! Where do I go from here? I lay down at night think that there Is going to be a brighter tomorrow but it is filled with clouds of chaos! How does one manage to get out of that? I wish my clouds of chaos would take me to OZ like the twister did for Dorthy! But I live in reality, there is no happiness somewhere over the rainbow!
Enough with this pessimistic thought bubble, that is just me rambling because it is hard to tell you all how I truly feel! But all in all yesterday was a good day for the most part! I got to spend time with Swiss and Mozzarella and they always know how to turn my frown upside down!Last night I also experienced the funniest youtube video I have ever seen! HAHAHAHAHAHONKKKK! A woman that laughs like a car horn! Now if that isn't epic I don't know what is?!? I am glad that I can still have fun times when I am a little down, it helps me! I am just always trying to better myself in the long run! I wish I could do it all at once! Hopefully next time I post on here for you all to read I will be fine, hopefully I will have all of my issues sorted out and my drama put to rest, I just need to get back to being myself! :) Till next time! x