My feelings today.

Today I feel rather lonely. I always go through days like this, when I feel lonely lost and confused. I am sure we all as humans go through days such as this. I feel as if if I had someone there living life with me (a significant other) that it would make life run a little smoother. Do you know what I mean? I know relationships are difficult but I feel that It would help me. The course of true love never did run smooth. I heard a song today that brings up a very good point. While watching New Now Next Pop Lab today a Jay Brannan song titled Can't Have it All came on and here are some lyrics,

Do you want a lover, or do you want a life?
one hand or the other, the butter or the bread knife?
do you choose winter, spring, summer, or fall?
it's driving me crazy that i can't have it all
If these walls could talk, they'd probably cry out for mercy
'til i'm outlined in chalk, i'll be romantically thirsty
so i drink and drink from the proverbial time sink
Fuck this, this can't be my life
tears flowing in full force tonight
why can't i sit down and write,
bring this question to light?
Do we hold the future, or does it come in peace?
and if it's in my hands, are you sure it should be in brittle hands like these?
life, love, and the pursuit of all the things they promised me
can i have all of the above? are the best things in life truly free?

How true is that? Sometimes in this life you have to choose one thing or another and those decisions are usually the most difficult to make. Jay really picked an amazing song to sing and it really got me thinking today! I am going to post more on my short story that I posted on here some time ago, you should check it out and see how I decided to finish it! Till next time! x