Honestly?!?

I know that I said I was going to try and be optimistic from now on but for today FUCK that I am being a major pessimist at this point in time! Last night was a waste of my fucking time! I should have just stayed home like I tend to do lately! Honestly, it seems to me that friends are overrated at this point! I went to go see my bro casey's play at his high school, it had it ups and downs of course, but everything shot to hell when a group of us decided to go to Starbucks afterwords. I would just like to say if there is anything I hate more when I am hanging out it is segregation into different groups! I HATE that! If you are going to segregate yourself then don't even tell the people you are not talking to that you are going in the 1st place! I went to Starbucks, so i sat at a table! Most of you stayed at your cars and didn't decide to join us till your OTHER friends left! That's bull shit!!!! My so called best friend hardly said 2 words to me! He ran off chain smoked and he supposedly needed to get home? If you needed to get home you should speak to the driver and you should not walk across a busy highway to walmart.... what is that going to help any! He kept wandering around, all the people at Starbucks (people we don't even know) were asking what his deal was! I don't fucking know what his deal was! I am so upset right now and if it seems like I am ranting like a bitch it is because I AM! I go to my best friends play with him and he chooses to IGNORE us and act like a lil bitch?!?!?!? Honestly? If you want to say something talk to me I cant read your freaking mind!!! I miss the old you! You aren't yourself lately and I don't like it at all! I feel like I put so much effort into my friendship to get nothing back! Last night was supposed to be about him but all that was just shit! I guess! And another thing FOR THE LAST TIME I don't mind chilling with AJ! Everyone has it in there head that I hate this kid! But last night was bull shit! I honestly don't know what to say to any of you people right now! You call yourself friends?!? BULLSHIT! I'm so tired and upset right now! Im just going to stop here!! I have way too much on my mind and I probably should not be posting this but again! Fuck it! I would also just like to thank the 2 people who actually acted sane and kept me composed last night, so thank you guys so much!!! Till next time! x